Hazelnut coffee + 2 packets of Swiss Miss = a delightful sleep inhibitor. Pair that with honey wheat pretzel sticks, and you've got yourself my recurrent late night snack of the past week or so.

It was probably a bad decision on my part to have that tonight, when I have to wake up early for a calc final tomorrow morning. I slept most of today, I think I was only up for 8 hours total. I napped from about 3PM-8PM, then went to the lower commons to purchase the coffee and pretzels, and then went to the studio (seems I can't escape that place) to study calculus since no studying ever happens in my room. I went through the packet and figured everything out. I hope I can do the same tomorrow during the final. I plan on going to breakfast tomorrow morning and running through the packet one more time. I wonder if I should get coffee? I wonder where I could get good coffee, since upstairs they only have gross plain coffee.

So I am already 5 or 6 coffees deep into a heavily sweetened (but stronger than before) addiction. Since it's only been a little over a week, I can see this as problematic. Live and learn I suppose. We'll see what comes of this. It tastes like deliciousness. Walking back from the studio with a caffeine high, rain, and Sufjan's voice, along with a prayer for forgiveness and guidance, resulted a spring of happiness to well up. I smiled as I looked at the curtain of rain surrounding me, and felt assurance that everything will be okay. Euphoria seems to come often with caffeine. Is that bad?

My New Zealand friend used to joke about my drug problem last semester when I would use energy drinks (though it only happened twice, I had coffee once) to stay awake. What would he say now? I really wish I could meet him. His emails make me laugh so much, and he seems really nice. Too bad NZ is so far away. We really need to do a real letter sometime. I remember we said after 100 emails we would do a real pen-pal letter. But it's probably been more than twice that many, but still we haven't. I will try to remember to ask him about it next time. Though I should work on my handwriting first.

Ouch, I forgot about the downside of coffee and pretzels. It tends to make my stomach hurt after a while. I wonder if it's just because of the pretzels or the coffee? Oh well. It tastes too good to stop just yet. I think I lost fifteen dollars, because I can't find it anywhere. :[

Well, I should try to sleep because tomorrow is going to come too soon.

I only got 5 hours of sleep last night. Um, wait, the night before. I have been up since 7:30 AM yesterday. It is 5:04 AM right now. I have class in 3 hours. I am doing some things to get ready for my presentation at 2:00. I am almost finished with everything. All I have to do is my site plan and gluing 3 pieces to my model. Also pinning up my illustrations.
I drank coffee (had to make it with 2 packets of hot cocoa mix) and it worked for a while, but my sleep deprivation led to my hands shaking, which is not cool when you're using an x-acto knife. But no injuries tonight! I mean... this morning! I was in the studio until 4:30, and I just took a shower. I have a math quiz, I don't think it will go well. I am so tired, it's so ridiculous. I feel dizzy and crazy. After math class I'm going to crash for 2 hours, and then I'll go back to the studio to finish everything and then when studio comes around I'm gonna present and then crash for ever. Oh... I am so tired.
Maybe I will crash for 2 hours after this.
My hands are jittery.

Hahaha, I was looking at old posts on my old livejournal, and I said something along the lines of "he said it would be 5 years of no sleep, and sometimes the studio is mobbed at 3:00 by students finishing projects." That was tonight. I love itttt... but it's hard. But I was happy just now after my shower. This is what I wanted, right? Hahaha... ohhhh. I love life.

Ack. I am going to pass out.

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