Today was so gloomy. It was very nice though. I got to see people I hadn't seen since winter break. We had lunch and coffee. (We sound like adults!) I realized (too late) that I missed a lot of opportunities earlier in life to hang out with someone. But maybe we can fix it somehow? I feel like I always do this. And then it's too late. Today was just so nice though, it was almost sad.

Tomorrow I have to work again. I am not enthused but at least I know what I'm doing in the morning so I'll have something to occupy my time with. 

Why isn't there ever enough time? I wish I could develop relationships with everyone. Meaningful ones. Ones where I could talk to them anytime. About anything. But there's never enough time. I know I could call anyone if I wanted to... but, at the same time... I can't. Life is too short to explore all it's possibilities. I try as hard as I can but when I'm sitting in that office wasting time all I can think about are all the other things I could be doing. I hate money. It ruins everything...


Now (And Then) - by Billy Corgan. It perfectly matches the weather. But it makes me sad. It's so pretty though. Are all sad things so beautiful? 

More than anything else, I want everyone to be happy. I want to laugh with you and be happy always. I want us all to stay friends forever and not listen to that horribly depressing graduation speech, to break that stereotype and be friends forever. I know we'll grow apart and we'll change. That's part of life. But if we can still stay together and talk about the changes and just... haha, I wish life was as simple as that. But I promise I'll try. Even if texting is the only way we communicate, I will try.